i keep gazing at the sky as if my soul was dissolved in it. i try to catch it, cloud after cloud. i could feel myself losing the image i tried to portray, i felt the pain chipping off my skin. i felt the blood covered smile fading away. a nude soul, raw and hurting. emotional and lost. when he tried to pull me close, i ran away with clumsy feet and weak knees. god, i knew no one could ever love a mess in a dress. i swallowed my tears down with words, i bit my tongue and spent nights spitting out blood. i was a girl with messy hair. hiding behind it, a messy mind
